Today we met our subject professors for the entire 2nd semester. We have four subjects: Two of which are way way major subjects, one pa-major subject but minor still, and the other one is minor also but is very important for our thesis!
I gulped as we discussed the syllabus for NURS 103 which is the course code that deals with alteraltion of normal human functioning, or simply, pathophysiology. Outline pa lang yun. Toughest semester, it seems... and as testified.
Something came up a week ago which stressed every inch of me. I'm feeling like I can't live life like a normal teenager should. Nevertheless, I am thankful for the people around me in bringing out the best in me. Though I have yet to learn lots of things, I'm taking it easy now. Break's over and I need to focus on my studies and especially on our nursing research which bothers me a lot!
It's good to know that people who really care about you sense something's wrong. I appreciate friends who truly understand me when I myself seem to be lost everytime I try to open up. I'm eighteen and all I can say to myself is to hang on. There seems to be no solution to life's hardest problems.. especially ones that involves your immediate family. I actually hate myself for slowly picking up things I should know 'cos no one else would. I refuse to sleep until I think everything's okay. I am still young and I feel everyone's expecting me to stand out and be more responsible when I can't really force myself to know this and that. And when I get impatient, they think I'm a bad person. I had lots of criticisms lately and I'm under pressure. I just have no choice, I guess.
I have reasons for going to med school and for once in my life, I don't want to feel cheap.
Even though I'm just a crumb of bread, I'm still a bread.
I gulped as we discussed the syllabus for NURS 103 which is the course code that deals with alteraltion of normal human functioning, or simply, pathophysiology. Outline pa lang yun. Toughest semester, it seems... and as testified.
Something came up a week ago which stressed every inch of me. I'm feeling like I can't live life like a normal teenager should. Nevertheless, I am thankful for the people around me in bringing out the best in me. Though I have yet to learn lots of things, I'm taking it easy now. Break's over and I need to focus on my studies and especially on our nursing research which bothers me a lot!
It's good to know that people who really care about you sense something's wrong. I appreciate friends who truly understand me when I myself seem to be lost everytime I try to open up. I'm eighteen and all I can say to myself is to hang on. There seems to be no solution to life's hardest problems.. especially ones that involves your immediate family. I actually hate myself for slowly picking up things I should know 'cos no one else would. I refuse to sleep until I think everything's okay. I am still young and I feel everyone's expecting me to stand out and be more responsible when I can't really force myself to know this and that. And when I get impatient, they think I'm a bad person. I had lots of criticisms lately and I'm under pressure. I just have no choice, I guess.
I have reasons for going to med school and for once in my life, I don't want to feel cheap.
Even though I'm just a crumb of bread, I'm still a bread.
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